The sun will come out…

Tomorrow, tomorrow

I should have sang that song to myself yesterday when I was in such a funk. Being called in to work at 4:30 pm and staying there until 12:30 am didn’t really help that funk. I got home a little after one because I missed dinner, was extremely hungry after work, and decided to stop at Whataburger. Ohmuhgoodness, Whataburger is crowded in the wee hours of a Saturday night. So many drunks!

It took me a while to unwind after I made it home, but I eventually fell asleep sometime after 3:00. This morning, I was out of bed by 9:00. The sun was shining brightly in my room and that was my cue to get the hell up and get going. Today, I am in a much livelier mood.

It may be my new phone. It may be knowing that I only have today and tonight left of on-call training. It may be that I get to see my honey and my family tomorrow. It may be that I will be watching Les Miserables in just two days. It may be that it makes me happy to see my 14-year-old cousin happy and that I love being a positive influence for him. It may be that I spent a large part of the morning just watching my critters play and interact with one another. It may be that I am watching the Cowboys and keep seeing promos for the upcoming Cotton Bowl game featuring my Fightin’ Texas Aggies and Johnny Football.

Whatever it is, it is good. It was needed. I am thankful.

All you have is time time time

I have said this before: I need to stop posting all my thoughts and sharing links, photos, and videos on facebook. I need to post them here instead. Here, where they will not get lost in a mass of soundbytes, images, rants, and raves. Here, where people who actually care to know about what is on my mind will come to find out. Here, where I can actually put my thoughts into more elaborate words.

The year is almost over and winter is officially here. With winter’s arrival, we will slowly start making our way towards longer days once again. Wintertime is without a doubt my least favorite time of year. Geeze, it sucks all the energy out of me and I constantly have to remind myself that I am, in fact, a happy daisy. Thankfully, the days will now start getting longer and with Daylight Saving Time beginning in a few months, I will get even more hours of sunlight in my days.

It’s frustrating, not being able to enjoy the sun at all. I am a child of summer. Astrologically, the sun is my ruling planet. My name means “the day’s eye” because the flower who shares its name with me looks like the sun. I… need… more… sun! Warm temperatures are not enough to get me through this horrid season. I need some rays. Bad.

Another good thing about the year progressing to the point we are at now is that I will no longer be on-call every other weekend. My goodness, I will be getting my life back! Granted, I’ll still have school and my normal work schedule, but my weekends, all of them, will belong to me once more. This means spending more time with my critters, friends, family, and Dustin. This also means finally putting a membership voucher I bought a month ago to use. Dance classes, here I come! Also, I will have time to open an Etsy shop soon. Details will follow. I am beyond excited.

So here’s to the end of the year and to time being on my side.

Happy holidays, y’all. Be safe.

I want to hibernate

I have nothing exciting to report. No events to share with you. Nothing that I feel worthy of a nice long blog post. Life has revolved around work and school. Striking a balance among those two and the rest of my life has not been a challenge because I am not letting it be. I simply ignore other aspects of life and do what I do.

It is getting old, though. I don’t feel drained, but I am not as fanciful as I usually am. I feel that if anything fun and adventurous were to happen in life at the present moment, it would all be forced. I hate forcing things.

I don’t know if it’s been my ridiculous rotations at work, my lack of exercise, or the fact that the sun does not play as long as it does in the summer. Maybe it’s a combination of things. Regardless, this is as close to being in a funk as I have been in a while. What a drag.

Hopefully, I can snap out of it. December 21st is only nine days away. It’s the day when the sun hides the most. After that, the days start getting longer and the calendar begins its steady approach towards the vernal equinox, which has to be one of my favorite days of the year!

I truly despise winter time. Even with the holiday breaks, it’s just such a bother! Ooof.